Biggest Mistake
Yes, a month ago I made the one of
the biggest mistakes I have ever made. I made a decision without thinking it
through, without praying and without listening to my holy spirit. I got a job
outside my home. I have home schooled for the last
few years and my son, our only child, graduated at 16 this year. Off and on
since then people have said I might want to get a job. Won’t I be bored at
home? Isn’t it unfair to have my husband work and make all the money? How can
we afford our bills? Won’t it be nice to have some luxuries?
A dear sweet friend who loves her
job had an opening in her department that I would be perfect for. The job is
sweet and the co-workers are wonderful. The hours are easy, only a few nights a
week and one weekend every once in a while and I would be doing some good. So I
interviewed. And I took the job. All she told me was true, really true. We even
get lunch for 50 cents!
So why was I crying on my way to
work each day? Why was I anxious each night before work? I felt uneasy. I felt
wrong. I felt selfish. I felt like I had made a big mistake. I felt like God
wasn't with me.
I could tell you how my home got
messy real quick. How I didn’t get to see my son two days a week because he
went to work before I got home. I could tell you my husband was lonely when he
got home from work, 3 hours before I did. I could tell you about the really bad
cold I got. I could tell you I felt like a hypocrite because I knew my place
was in the home. I could easily and truthfully tell you all that. And it would
be so true. But mainly I will tell you I was wrong.
I will never make this mistake
again. If the Lord wants me to work outside the home I will. But it will be
with his leading and blessing. Not mine. I know I am to be a Keeper of our Home
in all seasons of my life. And I love my job.