Biggest Mistake

Biggest Mistake

Yes, a month ago I made the one of the biggest mistakes I have ever made. I made a decision without thinking it through, without praying and without listening to my holy spirit. I got a job outside my home.  I have home schooled for the last few years and my son, our only child, graduated at 16 this year. Off and on since then people have said I might want to get a job. Won’t I be bored at home? Isn’t it unfair to have my husband work and make all the money? How can we afford our bills? Won’t it be nice to have some luxuries?

A dear sweet friend who loves her job had an opening in her department that I would be perfect for. The job is sweet and the co-workers are wonderful. The hours are easy, only a few nights a week and one weekend every once in a while and I would be doing some good. So I interviewed. And I took the job. All she told me was true, really true. We even get lunch for 50 cents!

So why was I crying on my way to work each day? Why was I anxious each night before work? I felt uneasy. I felt wrong. I felt selfish. I felt like I had made a big mistake. I felt like God wasn't with me.

I could tell you how my home got messy real quick. How I didn’t get to see my son two days a week because he went to work before I got home. I could tell you my husband was lonely when he got home from work, 3 hours before I did. I could tell you about the really bad cold I got. I could tell you I felt like a hypocrite because I knew my place was in the home. I could easily and truthfully tell you all that. And it would be so true. But mainly I will tell you I was wrong.

I will never make this mistake again. If the Lord wants me to work outside the home I will. But it will be with his leading and blessing. Not mine. I know I am to be a Keeper of our Home in all seasons of my life. And I love my job.